After the first blow to my nursing career another one comes in. I just got word from my headnurse about the medication error I have committed. I can sense her frustration in her voice and she actually voiced it out. As the tears were about to escape from my eyes, she grabbed my hand and brought me to the locker room. She asked me how I feel. I just sobbed. I feel so frustrated about myself. I am beginning to think, am I really fit for the job? What if the panel has made a mistake in choosing me over a thousand of candidates?
How am I supposed to save lives?
I feel like Kelly on Hawthorne. I lack the confidence but shall I give up? Did I buy myself one-way ticket to hell? Even if I did not, there’s no use to cry over the mistakes in the major decision that I have made about my career change. I have to move on. I promise myself that I will rise to the occasion. I will not be a failure. I owe it to myself more than anyone else. I just need some gut.
God help me.