I feel so low that I am not able to feel ecstatic checking on result of my latest lab work up. They are as follow:

I have stopped taking in any medication except for the steroids. This is so far the greatest lab results I have gotten since I have gotten ill. A reason to celebrate but I am seriously not in the festive mood. I am about to see my rheumatologist and I know he will not be happy with the sudden withdrawal from the medication. I just hope that he would approve of me getting an alternative way of keeping up with my medical condition.

I have gotten the lab results. While I am pleased to learn that my urine protein and hematuria levels have gone down, they are not still normal. For my blood works, everything was normal except for my cholesterol level. I admit my diet has something to do with it because during the holiday season, I ate like there was no tomorrow. I was thinking, I will just make it up when the holidays are over. I was thinking of eating healthy and doing dome cardio. Using weight loss products will be at the bottom of my list.

Yet again.  Seriously.

I got my lab  result and although the creatinine-protein ratio has improved  to 2.84 (which is still high, should be less than 1), I am still on edematous state.

My cholesterol level spiked at 400+ since I stopped taking in Crestor.

I took the liberty of getting urinalysis as I noticed that my urine is getting reddish plus  the fact that I have had fever in the past couple of days.  The tst revealed that I indeed have hematuria or blood in the urine and lots of bacteria too.

The doctor simply asked me how long  have  I been on therapy, I said about four months.  He just scribbled the same prescription as last month adding Crestor 10 mg (the previous dose before it was raised to 20 mg) to the list of medications.  I asked what he will do about the hematuria, he said that it’s a sign that I am on exacerbation and that I just need to take a rest.

He recommended a bed rest for the next 2 to 3 days.  Which I have requested by the way.

I don’t know but every time I come into his clinic, my mind always gets lost that I always forget to ask important things.  Is it because I could sense  that he’s always in a hurry? Or is it just me? I have been told by my friend, and as a nurse I should know, that it is my right to ask since I am paying for the consult.

Well, he asked me if I am experiencing pyuria (difficulty urinating). I said no, except that  I feel my urine is quite acidic that I need to wash after I urinated. He also asked if I have had fever, I said I had for two days but it went away immediately after taking paracetamol. He did not say anything.

My fear is that, I am close to finishing my treatment but I do not see any signs of light at the end of the tunnel.  Does this mean that I have to submit myself to chemo therapy in two months?

I am really scared.

God please help  me.